Rant_275
I write this from my toilet. Toilet, not a muse just a coincidence with nature.
A clean toilet though. Don’t think bad about it!
One of the ugliest and most difficult and emotion shattering situations in life is when you can’t get over a guy, girl you love so much but he,she just wouldn’t come through.
It can be so difficult, you will practically go dumb and lifeless when you think about everything you wish you had with the person or everything you wish you could do with love and a pure heart for the person.
People come to you, give you their 1 naira advice gotten from a blog somewhere, forget her, find something bad about her and use that as the reason why you should stay away from her, she will come back to you if she’s truly yours, think about the girls better than her. Find something doing. Go out. Make new friends. Socialize. Do the things you like.
They go!
You sit alone, stare into space and travel round the world but you won’t find a single fault in her. Glaringly, you can see that she’s maybe rather shy, conservative and too rigid. You know that kind of person isn’t who you should be in love with. But, love!
You don’t see it as fault so you don’t even think about it.
You remember perfect imperfections in that song..
So.
You wait in line for your 15 missed calls to be returned,
You check your phone every millisecond to see if the text is from her,
You go places you know she will be just to make sure you see her.
You beg beg beg and beg for her to even recognize your efforts.
But nah!
You start conversations and she ends it in 2 seconds,
You’re the pest, you’re the annoying parasite she wants as far away from her as possible.
You feel terribly bad and angry and jealous when other guys make her laugh and she has never smiled to the best of your jokes,
You want to throw up and die when she hugs or hold other guys, a treat you’ve never received before.
You sound very stupid everytime you try to make the conversation.
You feel like you can’t live without her but she glaringly lives without you.
I just want to tell you..
This 2018
No advise is going to help you if you’re not yet fed up with that pathetic situation. Even jesus that created her can’t help you.
So.. Put on your big boy pants and man up. Someone else is waiting for you to treat her like you’ve always imagined.
2018.. Don’t beg for anyone to stay!
I’m out of the toilet please. Just 5 minute thing.
Akingbade Ademide
